I am wondering if it's wrong... I am torn...

(imported from my previous site Sexual Thoughts for Us to Share )

I am wondering, actually kinda torn, about the difference between right and wrong? Is is wrong to take pictures of myself (my tits? my cunt? my ass?)? Is it wrong to take pics of me touching myself, rubbing my clit, pinching my nipples, playing with myself? Is it wrong to feel so good when I do it? It makes my body rush whenever I do it - the rush of the moment, feeling myself touching my private places, that no one ever sees? Is it wrong to think of someone who is "wrong" for me while I do this? It turns him on when I wear tight clothes. He likes it when I wear tops that show off when my nipples are hard and firm. He likes it when I talk dirty to him. I write him sexual explicits and, I know, he strokes himself and jacks off while he reads them. I send him pictures and he loves it. He tells me what he wants to see and I try to provide for him. I am not sure how I would react if we were in the same room and I was "performing" for him, but I can take "pretty" pictures for him and make him hard. How do you know it what you're doing to maybe something you were meant to do? Should I think about being a writer? Should I write about watching porn and feeling myself get wet and burning hot? How about the overwhelming sensation I feel go through me when I watch a video that has 2 girls doing it? Is it wrong to be curious? It is wrong to wonder if it might be fun? It has been so many years since I have been touched, kisesed or even held... or even involved in a sexual relationship. I really want to know what it would be like. As I am wiriting this, I am getting hot and bothered. Maybe I should just climb in bed and play with my toy. I might just slide it between my legs and tease my clit. I tangle my legs in my blankets as I drive my clit nuts. Suddenly my senses heighten and my body rushes as it orgasms. As my body is tangled in the blankets, I hold the toy tight as my body shudders and surges...cumming so hard... I let my eyes roll back into my head as my chest heaves and my hips respond. I let my body drop in exhaustion. I wonder what it would be like to actually have him there, as he pins me down and let me cum hard, and we cum together. Would it make the wait worth it? Is this wrong?