Well, not really "alone". It's family time. I spend the holiday with family. So, I am not alone. We will have food, family, chit chat, and laughs. But then, when I come home, I will fill into the position of "alone". Except for the three cats that find the heated waterbed a fabulous place to sleep. I miss having a warm body to curl up against and hold me close. I miss the feeling of soft fingers touching my face. I miss not hearing a soft heartbeat and quiet breathing. Once again, my christmas is alone... maybe that's why I have a hard time enjoying the holidays.